today for the first time in this past 1 year and 2 months, i really missed my paternal grandmother.. i wanted to cry i wanted to make a big fuss and make her appear in the place i call "ah ma house" again...she wasnt the best grandmother just like how i wasnt the best grandchild..if only i could see you now..

i've been talking about it forever like since 07 but now i really really want to travel alone..